Sometimes I think I walk around much too soft as if the water and the sand and my sheltered loner jaunts through this world where I get spun around in whirlwinds of crazy Love~ have made me so sensitive to the everything. And as I make my way I know more now than ever that I must always remain in my center. That maybe that is the key to any amount of moving higher is keeping yourself to the core. The other day I walked around with my heart in my throat the kind of day where everything is blurry and you are getting it all done but you are not sure how. And you want so much to speak your truth, but you just keep going... And I wasn't sure if I wanted to be here or there or anywhere but on the first boat to Spain... the truth is, it's either Love or Fear, those two things always come up. and so ultimately I must choose love.
Isn't it interesting that is our
greatest challenge in life everyday is communication... that we are still fighting WARS that we haven't evolved enough to LISTEN... or to know when the person we are talking to doesn't want to listen. The thing is, you know when you have met someone that is listening where there is a mutual respect and understanding because you will want to be near them, you will know that you are heard. so much is written with the minor subtleties of our expressions and body language, that we could say much less and be capable of so much more. Have you ever been talking to someone who used you as a sounding board, who didn't even take the time to let you respond, and how frustrating that is, or when someone is judging you as you are telling them something, I wish we could be nicer. I think now more than ever we have to listen to the earth, to our children, to our lovers, our elders, and to our enemies...and to open to the possibility that we can become greater. That compassion comes from learning and learning only comes from listening...but most of all we need to listen to ourselves...
It was a fine journey one filled with all things that great stories should have; tragedy, failure, betrayal, adventure, love, beauty, heartbreak, picturesque backdrops and musical interludes, flashes of some things that seemed true and sincere, perhaps what the story needed so desperately to make sense was a purpose, a reason, redemption...
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Know yourself so well that you can walk undaunted by judgement or opinion, Forgive and release things so entirely so that they no longer bind you in any way, do the things that move you, that bring you joy, know that you are loved, and that no matter how alone you may feel, that at the core we are all the same...
I only held back my kisses from you because I was afraid I would lose myself completely and the world would have folded into too much bliss~had I the chance again~ I would let time and space mingle and let my whole mouth sink into yours, and you would feel them stained to you long after you walked away. The divine content pleasure of building the want and speaking through the softness of your breath, my heart would have ached too much but I wouldn't have ever had regret of ever holding back from you...
