Kaleidoscope Theory

I HAVE RADIO SHOW!!!! Listen to my friend Jessa and I ~ Kaleidoscope Theory~ TUNE IN ON kkcr.org On Thursday Nights at 10:00 Hawaii Time. We play an eclectic mix of everything that is wonderful and amazing...

Ramblings of Truth

Make your life as amazing as you can, so that when dark parts come, they are eclipsed with a backdrop of all the light you have surrounded yourself with, lay the foundation in yourself so strongly so that you are no longer seeking outward but it comes to you, make sure you are listening to the truth it is speaking loudly from your heart.

Wanderlust

POSTAL service delight, scented retrospect of vanilla scented heat, basket naps,deploring the parking lots~ lifetimes of stories, music, solo wanderings of wanderlust musings, books and written ramblings, sending off the heartache in a lamp into the sky, eating pavement, jaunts of mystic beauty,a symphony of hope, opening up the doors, making it happen. I am still here.

Shadows

I met you because you brought me closer to myself...we wallowed in the darkness together grasping for air, to rub up against desire, to remember our hearts...and we parted into the light

Muses...

Burning Man

We walked through the desert...the madness of dust, the immunity to impale the ideas that bind us as humans; judgement, fear and replace it with a mass of people creating art, amassing a great city, where we became the characters of our soul. I walked with that presence, with the world, and my fate. For that time I was stripped of all that I knew and my spirit ran free and I was pure in my happiness, pure in pleasure, creating, dancing. Sitting in a circle surrounded by them, singing my words into the night a glorious pulsing of coming into myself... through that whole night we ran through the city, walking hand in hand to the rhythm of the beat surrounding us, we danced and I draped myself in beautiful things, my lips painted red, I stood in a maze of fire, I looked at him and smiled and saw myself in that reflection... we ran until we reached the edge of the desert, he reached out and pressed his thumb on my third eye as the sun was rising, the most sincere love I will never forget, that gentle gesture touched me to the core and for that moment we were timeless...

The greatest Advice I ever got was... Don't play the Victim

Summer Love

We Drove down the Freeway and he asked me to pull over. I waited on the side of the road watching him recede into the flowers. I followed him down the path and we abandoned our car by the side of the road. We took a nap in the dirt, warm with the earth and the sun~ He slept with his hand on the curve of my hip as he would always do from that day forth, I tried to imagine that I had never known him, I couldn't. He felt like desire intertwined with the deepest comfort I had known...

Visual Delights...

We walked down the pier~ nostalgic for the beauty of our love~An intermittent sadness of the brilliant imperfections of life. I lay my head in your lap. You are a prominence of the brigade of things that I had laid to rest. My heart bound to my sleeve. The utterance of all things true

Find your Bliss

We run toward the water, at the edge of an island...A sinking ship and a symphony speaking to me defined only in shapes and colors. Want to stay forever, never want to go, For here it is silence synthesizing with calm with breath with life. The desire to take it all in, absorb it...Do not fight the change go with it, from the root to the core, ground it to the earth, write it, paint it, dance it, sing it, touch it, let it go, surrender, and give it all that you have, love it, believe in it, open your heart, see it, envision it, manifest it and then be it... and remember this moment of letting go...

Sirens

We were once young girls moving with joy through the woods and the sand and the water...languid innocence derived from reckless abandon and lush inhalation of divine love, it was a perfect chapter in time, on an island of beauty...

Try Bohemian

Paris...

I keep waiting for something to inspire my heart again....I long for the freedom to roam freely. I want to write and get paid to travel. I want to stay up all night feeling all my words whispering softly into someone, I want to be anonymous walking down the street, I want to feel the pulsing of something real and genuine and sincere, I want the recognition that someone sees me, I want to be mended, I want to dance until I cannot move, and surf until I cannot move, and make love until I cannot move...my arms are outstretched but I am bound to this island. I am aching for more...I am thankful I am grateful, but I want more....

Amour

There will be others... there are ones that you will love the same, or differently, but there is always that one person that no matter what, you will recall them and your whole body will remember them, and you will want them near...

We climbed to the top of the mountain to watch the Tsunami

It made me think about everything on the global scale, perched on the edge of the world with those that I love, how tiny I felt up there. How thankful I am filled with gratitude for each and every moment of my life, sincere gratitude

I carried you with me all through Europe you were stained into me, into all that I saw~I walked through London aching for you, I pushed myself into desire...I danced in clubs, I smoked cigarettes outside coffee shops and picked out girls you would like to sleep with... In Paris I took in the old architecture and it moved me so deeply that I couldn't find the words to convey to you in all the letters~ That you evoked the same emotions in me that those beautiful ancient masterpieces did; out of my body, into a dream, into Euphoria. You were there with me every time I felt my heart open to beauty.

I will always reach for you...

with him my body moved without thinking, all I wanted was to absorb him with all my senses, to pull him so deep into my being, so that he could feel what my heart was feeling for him...it was unlike anything I have ever experienced